No More Excuses!

It took my until college for me to fully realize it. But I'm a pretty damn cooly cool person. Not to mention I'm adorable. -gets bricked-

But seriously, my freshman year of college is over and it has been a quite good one at that. I'm grateful for all the friends I've made and all the relationships I've formed. I'm also grateful that I continued to learn more about myself and how to better myself as a person. 

I've grown to actually really love myself during college. It didn't take a miracle or something of the like to happen in order for me to realize it, because it was entirely gradual. I came in to college thinking I was comfortable with who I was and thinking I was fabulous, but it wasn't until the end until I truly realized how much I had grown as a person. As cheesy as it sounds, it's TRUE. In the beginning of the year I wouldn't have DARED to even attempt to wear the outfits you see in the posts preceding this one. But now I realize that THAT was what I've always wanted to dress like but never had the resources or the confidence too. :/ Now that I've finally gained it it feels fucking great. 

I even realized that the better I took care of myself, the better I felt about myself. I NEVER BELIEVED THAT CRAP WAS TRUE UNTIL I LIVED IT WITHOUT REALIZING IT. derp.

Now that school is over I have no more excuses. No more "reasons" as to why I can't take a couple minutes out of my day to keep myself healthy. I realized that it's time to start taking care of myself and in order to do that I have started working out again! 

I used to work out during high school, but then stopped entirely when I had a sudden er..."attack" of heart palpitations  Then I became too scared to overwork myself in fear of bringing them on again. Silly me, isn't working your heart out supposed to PREVENT that from happening again? So now I will attempt again and try to stick to my plan. Hopefully me announcing it on the internets will motivate me to actually stick to it. It'd be a real pain to quit and then go back to this post to see that I've stopped. Cue the cringing and the self hate.

But this ISN'T a "weight loss journey". No, because I have grown to love my shape at 5'4" and 185 lbs. 8D It's just that I'm particularly disappointed and upset with myself that I allowed myself to gain a bit of weight over freshman year :/ The fact that I ignored it and made excuses for what I did to gain that weight bothers me. I don't think it's very healthy to gain 5-7 lbs during the school year and now I plan to undo that and make myself even healthier than when I first arrived to my dorm room.

Let it be known that I don't EVER EVER want to be a size 0. It is not my intention to lose 50 or 75 lbs because I think it'll make me prettier. That isn't the case at all. In fact, at the moment I am a size 12 and I have been for a while. It's funny because that's like the borderline size to be the smallest plus size or the largest "normal" size. XD It's all very confusing depending on which store I go to. I just want to be back to where I was starting high school, because I was at about the same height and yet I hated my body so much. I just want to go back to that point and just reprimand myself for even thinking such thoughts. I'm beautiful at 185 and I know I will be at 160. =]

BUT ANYWAY. My point is that I'm not one of those people that are trying to lose 50 lbs because they think they need to in order to look prettier or because it's necessary or else they're probably going to die of a heart attack within the following year. I'm just a college student who fell prey to the renowned "Freshman 15" and wants to turn back to the clock to when she first started high school at around 160lbs. XD I call myself a hypochondriac because I take various vitamins and try to eat better than most (I only drink water and milk, so go me?), and yet most of the time I can't be arsed to hope on a treadmill for my health. How stereotypically American of me. But now that will all change this summer over the the next three months! Wish me luck. :] 

Let us eat cake!

Ooooh, people get me good. They really do.

From my roomate's insistent inquiries to what I liked to the highly suspicious way she walked around the halls back in forth in hurry, I should have expected it coming! But I didn't. I couldn't. I was told not to! My birthday was during FINALS week for crying out loud, so why expect anything? It wouldn't do me any good and I understood. It didn't really make feel bad or anything. The happy birthday wishes were more than enough.

It wasn't until I walked through my building's lounge that I had been duped! Shamboozled! Outright lied to! But...I loved it. And I love my friends. :) That was my first ever surprise party and I don't think I could've asked for more. They got me a newwww....NERF GUUUN.

FEAR ME! Er...It...Or...us. FEAR US. >8DD

Walp. This marks the beginning of the end to my teenage years. I SHALL NERF YOU ALL. 

The Outfit That Started It All

Crap. I think this just may be one of those fashion blogs. But is there really anything wrong with that? Waaaah, I wanted to just focus on things that were important and stood out to me in my life and this is what ends up happening to meee. Now what does that say about me?

While you guys dwell upon that I am just going to share my first attempt at an outfit that I was actually a bit nervous to wear out in public. It was one of the first outfits that I personally deemed as a bit too weird. I'm normally known for being colourful, but I thought I was overstepping some boundaries when I wore this. But I'M SO GLAD I DID IT ANYWAY. This ended up being one of my favorite outfits ever. :D

Loonette The Clown!

So this past Friday was the last day of classes here at my freshman year at Binghamton University. And so what did I do to celebrate? Dress completely CRAZY of course! And why not? I figure "I'm Deidre, therefore I can do WHATEVER the hell I want with my appearance. 8D!" And is that not true? I sure think it is. I mean...I'm like totally awesome.

'Omgomg she's so arrogant. She's not even that cute.'

I don't call it arrogance, I just call it being comfortable with myself. Comfortable enough with my wacky self that I can feel free to express it however way I want (this way being through fashion). This isn't to say that the only people that are comfortable with themselves are the ones that dress against the norm. Totally untrue. This is just me saying that I like to express myself and I like fashion. I like expressing myself through fashion and it just so happens that I'm expressing something that is apparently really weird. Oh well. What can ah say? I just  gotta do me, ya'll.

Anywah, what did I wear you ask? Well on my head I wore to clip on flowers, each a different colour located on opposite sides of my head. I wore my hair in pigtails and wore completely mismatched earrings and hair ties. Underneath my electric turqouise blazer I wore a red polka dotted button up shirt with a black polka dotted  skirt worn up at my waist. Did I mention I had a monkey in one pocket of my blazer and a teddy bear in the other? To complete my totally fly outfit I wore lavender tights with a pink legwarmer on one and a white one on the other. My shoes were also a force to be reckoned with. They were simulatenously gray and purple. GRAY AND PURPLE!

Okay, so enough about the outfit. Now I shall tell you what exactly I did on that day I wore the outfit.

So my guy friend thinks that I'm totally crazy and weird for wearing what I wear and we had a really long conversation about biases against and for what people wear, why people percieve people the way they do because of what they appear like on the outside, etc. Point is that it was an interesting convsersation that eventually led to bet that for one day I could dress him up whichever way I wanted. And with that boy's wardrobe, Lord knows that it would have been hard to put anything together. So I end up lending up various pieces from my own wardrobe and I accidentally made him out to be a hipster. Woops. Not like I cared, though. He had no say in it anyway. XD

DID I MENTION HE LOOKED TOTALLY ADORABLE. All his girly frands were totally digging on him, ya'll ;D

What can I say? I'm a miracle worker. The suspenders, tucked in plaid shirt, glasses and fedora were working on him that day.

But that wasn't the end of the little bet. He brought up the idea of making a survey about people's first impressioins and rankings of the outfits. I wasn't particularly fond of this idea as I didn't really give a damn what people thought. If I did, I don't think I'd be dressing the way I do to begin with. But alas, I figured the boy was lazy and I dared him to make the survey and pass them out himself. He then insisted that he needed my help and we end up going around campus handing out surveys and pretending it was for a psych class. Even some of the psych takers bought it. Hilarity.

A lot of their first impressions about me were actually very funny! I got wizard of oz, Pippi Longstocking and my favorite...Loonette the Clown. That girl was my IDOL growing up. I just wish I could do the 10 second tidy whenever I wished. D':

But the joke doesn't end here. As we were in the union handing out surveys, my guy friend gestures over towards what appeared to be a couple eating their dinner. "Go, be perky to get them to do the survey." Well...I guess I overdid it.

"HAAAAIDEEHOO!" I said all cheerily before eyes widened. The dude was choking. My outfit coupled with my overzealous hello caused him to nearly CHOKE. Oh gosh, of course we were all laughing when we realized he was okay, but that definitely was the highlight of my night.

Outfit pictures come soon to THIS post. Watch out, m'lovies.

My lovely roomate and I =D

While I really don't intend on this becoming a fashion blog, I can't help but show off our lovely little outfits today. We had been planning to wear our african shirts for a while to represent our homeland: Ghana! Yeaaaah boooiiii. You know that's what's up. ;D

Yes, today's outfit wasn't as crazy as usual, but it was enough for me to be happy. Although...I was a tad insulted when one of my very close guy friends deemed my outfit as "normal". I normally take delight in when he says "Oh no, don't wear that!" Because of course I'm thinking "GO, BABY, GO! 8D"

All right, well exams are being a pain in the ass right now. Just took my first exam tonight of the many coming up over this and next week. Then I can kiss freshman year goodbyeeeeee. HOOHAH.

Wish me luck, ya'll.

And so college ends here, doesn't it?

Welp, I find that I really only feel like making posts when I've done something special and this weekend is that time!

This weekend was Spring Fling and I took the opportunity to dress my craziest! I must say I had shit loads of fun  getting compliments, the stares and the negative reviews! It was so much fun to be even more crazy than usual.

I actually had the fortune to have two girls I don't even know come up to me to take photos of my totally happening outfit. Of course the praise totally went to my wee little head and now it only motivates me to dress like this more often because it most accurately illustrates my personality : D Apparently weird and outgoing is a dangerous combination?

I also, took the liberty of making a nice long little list of all the things that I learned in my first year of college! Posted it on facebook and now sharing it with you guys! Take a looksee and see if you can relate! =]


-Which classes I can miss without any repercussions

-How to take other's clothing out of the washing machine when they're not there!

-How to play foozeball

-That Yahoo Answers is the answer to life.

-How to hide from people in order to get work done

-How to order clothes online. ;D

-How to take naps in between classes.

-How to scam people for textbooks

-How to save your meal plan

-How to play Mao 

-That the Africans do it big here on campus ;D

-How NOT to get ripped off by a cab driver

-How to RUN for the bus 

-How to creep around in the Nature Preserve at night

-Greek life!

-How to be a goon. 

-How to wait outside in the cold without much clothing

-How to pull an all-nighter and still be fine the next day

-How to bond with people I wasn't expecting to get close to! 

-How to walk out the dining hall smoothly with a stolen water bottle in hand

-That it is ALWAYS good to carry around an umbrella in Binghamton University

-How to perfect my violin technique 

-Self expression through my outfit selection 8D (HATERS GONNA HATE 8DDD)

-How to be myself and finally fully not give a damn what others think 

-That it is essential to have banging headphones 

-How to be more open to everything around me. 

-More about the Jewish and Muslim faith that I wasn't aware of 

-Oh! And even the Christian faith!

-People are both terrible and fabulous

-That I want to sink my teeth into some man meat. (oops. how whoreish of me, isn't it? oh well. D:)

-That cartoons are essential to my functioning as a human being

-That I'm a wierdo. But you're a weirdo too. So be quiet and enjoy it. (If you're tagged then the preceding statement is true. Very true. And I love it.)

-That I'm fortunate to have so many good people in my life both here and back at home. 

-Chemistry consumes your life.

And last, but not least:

EVERYBODY is fucking WACKO in the head once you get to know them.